From year to year, crisis to crisis, I’ve comforted myself with many thoughts gleaned from books and articles. They lulled me in to a sense of everything was ok, everything was going to plan, it’s all part of some bigger picture so just keep following the path. When I put the below quotes together and read them I thought what drivel – and I’ve been quoting them to myself for years!
I’m particularly fond of the thought that before we came to this life we were taken to one side and given a set of blueprints of how it was all going to pan out, but for some unfathomable reason these were then taken from us and all memory wiped as we kicked and screamed our way in to our mother’s arms. Whose bright idea was that then! I’m sure I’ve worked for companies who believe in the same philosophy. There’s promise we may get to see them again on our way out and check if we made it all happen – I wonder whose keeping score and what happens if we blew it? Do we lose brownie points, get kept in after school, have to write 100 times ‘I cocked it up’.
Someone must have a clue what was on those blueprints. Books tell us to plan, make goals, have lists of stuff we think we need to do, have meaningful relationships and careers, keep busy, don’t be busy, meditate, lose yourself, find yourself .. and on it goes.
Is all this just a distraction to fill the gap between arrival and departure? We’ve been dumped airside and now we need to amuse ourselves in duty free waiting for the last flight out.
What if there is no blueprint, no plan, no path. How scary is that, someone forgot to install the sat nav ..
At this point you can either freeze on the spot long enough to be eaten by wolves, follow the crowd and hope it’s going someplace you want to be, or decide to make it up as you go along and take life at your pace.
What if you are already where you are meant to be, could you relax, accept your life, be happy and content? Or would you still be looking to fill some gap?