There’s a Storm on the Horizon

There’s a storm on the horizon.

For a while now I’ve sat on the shore and watched as it rumbled in the distance.  On occasion, when my attention wandered, it would send out a timely bolt from the blue to remind me it was still there and not to be ignored.

There’s a storm on the horizon.

I made a promise to myself that no longer would I perish amongst someone else’s chaos, I’d lived that life for too many years and became totally lost, just another piece of burnt debris.  Crawling from the ashes I’ve built a life, a calm sanctuary where I can sit peacefully.

There’s a storm on the horizon .. and it’s advancing closer.

Do I run, or stay and fight?  This time there is no running from it.  To fight would  activate my armour, that wall of steel that wraps my heart and keeps me safe.  I need my heart, I need to be kind and gentle for this isn’t my storm but it will hit me with force.  I can’t outrun it and I can’t defeat it – when the storm hits and pulls me off my feet I need to breathe between the waves.


There’s a storm on the horizon .. like all devastating storms this one has a name – Dementia.

There’s a storm heading for shore .. my Mum has dementia




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  1. This is heartbreaking. The writing is evocative and powerful, the truth at the end gut wrenching. I’m so sorry. Wishing you many spaces between the waves to breathe in.

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      1. Though I admit I commented before reading the referenced post. Instead let me hope that you have many around you who will come to your aid, buoy you up, and ultimately bring you safely ashore.

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  2. Oh Deb, what terribly sad news for you. Remember always, she is still your mum and she always will be. Your heart is full enough of those necessary things to sustain you during the storm. Try not to neglect your own heart felt needs to replenish your storm battered soul and you will get through this.

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  3. A heartfelt post Deb, I feel for you, more than you know. My own mum had brain surgery last year which went horribly wrong and which has changed her forever. I pray for you, be strong and cherish the time with her. It’s a hard journey but you will be ok.

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    1. Thanks Richard. So many people have loved ones with this damned condition! It’s like waiting for the sun to come out from behind the clouds, like you said it’s all the more special when it does reappear.

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  4. I am so very sorry about your mum. My folks are showing early signs. It just breaks my heart! Prayers for all of us who have loved ones with it and prayers for us in our later years that there can be a cure. Is this the price we must pay for longevity? Why does it strike some and not others? God bless you!

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