30 Day Journaling Challenge – Day One

I am not a writer, I’m not even remotely chatty, which brings me to why I’ve signed up for a 30 day journaling challenge.  A recent tarot card reading (don’t judge, I was curious) said I needed to take myself off into the wilderness with pen and paper and find myself.  So here I am, in the wilderness of my own brain, trying to find myself.

Day one and today’s subject – Who Am I?  Could we have started with an easier question, I could be here for a long time ..  I started making a list

  • someone’s daughter
  • someone’s sister
  • someone’s ex-wife
  • I am everything that anyone else has told me I am
  • I’m my past and my present and everything in between

Or am I?

The more I thought about it the more I believe that I am no longer defined by any of these descriptions and labels.

From a recent yoga retreat I found that I am

  • strong and thoughtful
  • soft and kind
  • happiest sitting in the sun looking at the ocean, or in my garden
  • vulnerable (phew that took a lot to admit)
  • someone who needs to move my body, stretch like a cat, twirl & dance
  • able to create my own energy and inspiration
  • grateful for all that I have, and for every day I wake up breathing
  • the lady with mermaid’s hair (ok that was from the tarot card reader!)
  • good enough, just as I am

Once I moved past the old stories running through my mind and the external ‘noise’, and took time to really feel who I was, I realised I am the person I always wanted to be.

 

 

6 thoughts

  1. Beautifully written Debs but don’t forget you’re also somebody’s friend, sounding board, confidant and I’m so grateful to have you as my friend even though distance keeps us apart. You are and always will be a very special lady x

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    1. Thanks Sharon. I never really consider the geographical gap between us, in my thoughts you are always close by with your warmth and humour. Thank you for being my beautiful friend xx

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