30 Day Journaling Challenge – Day One

I am not a writer, I’m not even remotely chatty, which brings me to why I’ve signed up for a 30 day journaling challenge.  A recent tarot card reading (don’t judge, I was curious) said I needed to take myself off into the wilderness with pen and paper and find myself.  So here I am, in the wilderness of my own brain, trying to find myself.

Day one and today’s subject – Who Am I?  Could we have started with an easier question, I could be here for a long time ..  I started making a list

• someone’s daughter
• someone’s sister
• someone’s ex-wife
• I am everything that anyone else has told me I am
• I’m my past and my present and everything in between

Or am I?

The more I thought about it the more I believe that I am no longer defined by any of these descriptions and labels.

From a recent yoga retreat I found that I am

• strong and thoughtful
• soft and kind
• happiest sitting in the sun looking at the ocean, or in my garden
• vulnerable (phew that took a lot to admit)
• someone who needs to move my body, stretch like a cat, twirl & dance
• able to create my own energy and inspiration
• grateful for all that I have, and for every day I wake up breathing
• the lady with mermaid’s hair (ok that was from the tarot card reader!)
• good enough, just as I am

Once I moved past the old stories running through my mind and the external ‘noise’, and took time to really feel who I was, I realised I am the person I always wanted to be.